In-san-it-y

With all the insanity that work has been this week, I just realized that I missed my normal Thursday link up. Oops.

Let's see.. I made a trip to Arlington this week. Good times. Work sent me to a workshop ON THE FIRST FREAKIN DAY OF SCHOOL. It was a great workshop and I learned a lot, but it put me way behind. That and work is just not good. It's actually downright awful. I won't put details down (to protect the innocent and the assholes), but it's not good. While in Arlington, I got to see my lovely best friend Brittany. We were roomies in college and have managed to stay in touch.

I have been managing to eat much healthier, and have recently discovered a love of grapefruit. It's really good! So that's usually my breakfast. Yum. I splurged last night on Applebees. It was amazing. I love the queso.. and the chicken strips.. and the booze tea. There are so many better things for me, but I didn't care.

That is the problem. If I have a bad day week, I turn to food for comfort. Fried food, sweet food, salty food.. Any food. This sounds a bit disturbing as I type it.. It doesn't sounds like I have a very healthy relationship with food..

Sunday Social!

Here is my second link up with Keely and Ashley over at A Complete Waste of Makeup. I'm slowly getting used to the awesomeness that are linky parties. Here's hoping I'm able to make some friends!

All about the interwebs!

1. What is the first website you log on to each day?
At work- My email... It's theraputic to clean out my work inbox first thing in the morning. It gets me focused and ready for the day.
At home- Facebook or Pinterest. It's a toss up between the two. Rarely do I open anything else before one of these.

2. Give us some funny websites you visit that we need to know about
theCHIVE and STFU Parents are the funny ones that I visit.

3. Pinterest or Facebook? Why?
Um.. Both? I'm a confessed addict. You can find me on Pinterest here. I'm working on revamping my blog's Facebook page, but you can find it by searching Chunky to Funky on Facebook.

4. Twitter or Instagram? Why?
Instagram! I love looking at all the pretty pictures, even though I'm not as avid a picture poster as I should be. Here's a picture of my most recent naughty splurge. I have a soft spot in my heart for snow cones (best part of summer, EVER!).

5. Favorite youtube video...post it!
This will show my nerd... I have 2 and it's a tie between a couple Doctor Who related videos.. Enjoy both!



6. Biggest online pet peeve?
PpL WhO tHINk ItS aWeSoMe TO tYPE lIKE dIS... Ugh.. Give me a break, thanks..

How to deal with a micromanager?

Not 100% sure... Just one of the several work issues I'm dealing with. I feel emotions that I probably won't share with the entire internet. I'm frustrated, exhausted, and stressed. Have I mentioned that it's only my first day back?

I think that one of the many focuses of this blog will be not only making my body healthy, but keeping a healthy mind and spirit. I will readily admit that I suffer from depression from time to time.

I am not medicated (nor have I been diagnosed recently), but I know the signs of the disease. I was medicated a couple years ago and have been considering talking to my doctor about getting back on the medicine. I wish I had the resources to talk to a counselor on a regular basis, but my small town and insurance plan do not allow for that. I know the symptoms and I know myself well enough to know when I am slipping, and I'm slipping now. I'm tired all the time, I get body aches and head aches, I cry, and I have no energy. I no longer enjoy things that I once enjoyed. I used to love my job, now I don't care.

It's OK Thursday...

It's been a tad hectic the last few days around the house... James was admitted to the hospital on Tuesday evening with stroke-like symptoms. His official diagnosis was an atypical migraine. He's home now, which is quite nice.

I've been struggling a bit with some things going on in my personal life. I'm not really at liberty to go into details, lets just say that things are pretty difficult. I'm also feeling a little lonely lately. All but one of my friends live at least an hour away, and the one that lives close works a really wonk shift. I think I may start linky parties.. Here's my first link up with Amber and Keely at A Complete Waste of Makeup.
It's ok...

To watch Dr. Who until 2am with my fiance...

To have a crush on an actor that's nearly my mother's age (hellloooo David Tennant)...

To not be ready to go back to work... It's still summer!

To wait until James has a job to get married...

To really wish he could find a job so we could get married...

To want to cook more healthy food and not eat so much crap...

To take pleasure in eating unhealthy every once in a while...

To perhaps splurge a bit on myself with the mileage check that I just got for driving to NOLA :)

So... In conclusion...

It's ok!

Stress doth not a pretty waistline make...

I've had this post in the Draft category for several days now, trying to decide what kind of whimsy to enlighten my small, but relatively dedicated readership with.. Instead of imparting some random snippet of inspiration or a delicious recipe, I'm going to vent a little bit.. It may not be pretty, it may be less than coherent and it may not be classy, but dammit I need someone to just sit there and listen to me lament and complain.

For those of you that know me personally, know that James is currently without work... He was working for the school as a sub, but that's not cutting the mustard anymore. He needs something full time, preferably with benefits of some sort. It's not happening at the moment. Not at all. He's trying, but it's not happening. The burden of carrying our little 2 person household on the penance that I make monthly is taking its toll on me. I weighed myself this morning and nearly sobbed... I've gained nearly 10 pounds of weight back, thanks to the shit diet of processed crap that we are forced buy, because it's all we can afford. That and the fact that all I want to do is go to bed and sleep.. Sleep and maybe not wake up for a few days.

Between him being jobless, the stress of my job (crap on toast that's a complicated story), and the stress of being completely and utterly poor are taking it's toll on my body. My fingers peel (gross, yes) when I get stressed. The skin literally comes off my fingers in tiny, disgusting sheets. While yes, I do have an extremely mild case of eczema, it's still completely gross that my hands do that.

Don't get preachy and tell me to go for a run or go workout... Just don't.. Yes, it will make me feel better... I don't have the energy to get out of this chair, much less drag my lard around the block a time or two.

There's my rant. Wordy, snarky, and pretty depressing. Hopefully the job fairy will be kind to us soon... That would relieve some of the emptiness I feel.