Not 100% sure... Just one of the several work issues I'm dealing with. I feel emotions that I probably won't share with the entire internet. I'm frustrated, exhausted, and stressed. Have I mentioned that it's only my first day back?
I think that one of the many focuses of this blog will be not only making my body healthy, but keeping a healthy mind and spirit. I will readily admit that I suffer from depression from time to time.
I am not medicated (nor have I been diagnosed recently), but I know the signs of the disease. I was medicated a couple years ago and have been considering talking to my doctor about getting back on the medicine. I wish I had the resources to talk to a counselor on a regular basis, but my small town and insurance plan do not allow for that. I know the symptoms and I know myself well enough to know when I am slipping, and I'm slipping now. I'm tired all the time, I get body aches and head aches, I cry, and I have no energy. I no longer enjoy things that I once enjoyed. I used to love my job, now I don't care.
Monday, August 20, 2012
Thursday, August 16, 2012
It's OK Thursday...
It's been a tad hectic the last few days around the house... James was admitted to the hospital on Tuesday evening with stroke-like symptoms. His official diagnosis was an atypical migraine. He's home now, which is quite nice.
I've been struggling a bit with some things going on in my personal life. I'm not really at liberty to go into details, lets just say that things are pretty difficult. I'm also feeling a little lonely lately. All but one of my friends live at least an hour away, and the one that lives close works a really wonk shift. I think I may start linky parties.. Here's my first link up with Amber and Keely at A Complete Waste of Makeup.
It's ok...
To watch Dr. Who until 2am with my fiance...
To have a crush on an actor that's nearly my mother's age (hellloooo David Tennant)...
To not be ready to go back to work... It's still summer!
To wait until James has a job to get married...
To really wish he could find a job so we could get married...
To want to cook more healthy food and not eat so much crap...
To take pleasure in eating unhealthy every once in a while...
To perhaps splurge a bit on myself with the mileage check that I just got for driving to NOLA :)
So... In conclusion...
It's ok!
I've been struggling a bit with some things going on in my personal life. I'm not really at liberty to go into details, lets just say that things are pretty difficult. I'm also feeling a little lonely lately. All but one of my friends live at least an hour away, and the one that lives close works a really wonk shift. I think I may start linky parties.. Here's my first link up with Amber and Keely at A Complete Waste of Makeup.
It's ok...
To watch Dr. Who until 2am with my fiance...
To have a crush on an actor that's nearly my mother's age (hellloooo David Tennant)...
To not be ready to go back to work... It's still summer!
To wait until James has a job to get married...
To really wish he could find a job so we could get married...
To want to cook more healthy food and not eat so much crap...
To take pleasure in eating unhealthy every once in a while...
To perhaps splurge a bit on myself with the mileage check that I just got for driving to NOLA :)
So... In conclusion...
It's ok!
Monday, August 13, 2012
Stress doth not a pretty waistline make...
I've had this post in the Draft category for several days now, trying to decide what kind of whimsy to enlighten my small, but relatively dedicated readership with.. Instead of imparting some random snippet of inspiration or a delicious recipe, I'm going to vent a little bit.. It may not be pretty, it may be less than coherent and it may not be classy, but dammit I need someone to just sit there and listen to me lament and complain.
For those of you that know me personally, know that James is currently without work... He was working for the school as a sub, but that's not cutting the mustard anymore. He needs something full time, preferably with benefits of some sort. It's not happening at the moment. Not at all. He's trying, but it's not happening. The burden of carrying our little 2 person household on the penance that I make monthly is taking its toll on me. I weighed myself this morning and nearly sobbed... I've gained nearly 10 pounds of weight back, thanks to the shit diet of processed crap that we are forced buy, because it's all we can afford. That and the fact that all I want to do is go to bed and sleep.. Sleep and maybe not wake up for a few days.
Between him being jobless, the stress of my job (crap on toast that's a complicated story), and the stress of being completely and utterly poor are taking it's toll on my body. My fingers peel (gross, yes) when I get stressed. The skin literally comes off my fingers in tiny, disgusting sheets. While yes, I do have an extremely mild case of eczema, it's still completely gross that my hands do that.
Don't get preachy and tell me to go for a run or go workout... Just don't.. Yes, it will make me feel better... I don't have the energy to get out of this chair, much less drag my lard around the block a time or two.
There's my rant. Wordy, snarky, and pretty depressing. Hopefully the job fairy will be kind to us soon... That would relieve some of the emptiness I feel.
For those of you that know me personally, know that James is currently without work... He was working for the school as a sub, but that's not cutting the mustard anymore. He needs something full time, preferably with benefits of some sort. It's not happening at the moment. Not at all. He's trying, but it's not happening. The burden of carrying our little 2 person household on the penance that I make monthly is taking its toll on me. I weighed myself this morning and nearly sobbed... I've gained nearly 10 pounds of weight back, thanks to the shit diet of processed crap that we are forced buy, because it's all we can afford. That and the fact that all I want to do is go to bed and sleep.. Sleep and maybe not wake up for a few days.
Between him being jobless, the stress of my job (crap on toast that's a complicated story), and the stress of being completely and utterly poor are taking it's toll on my body. My fingers peel (gross, yes) when I get stressed. The skin literally comes off my fingers in tiny, disgusting sheets. While yes, I do have an extremely mild case of eczema, it's still completely gross that my hands do that.
Don't get preachy and tell me to go for a run or go workout... Just don't.. Yes, it will make me feel better... I don't have the energy to get out of this chair, much less drag my lard around the block a time or two.
There's my rant. Wordy, snarky, and pretty depressing. Hopefully the job fairy will be kind to us soon... That would relieve some of the emptiness I feel.
Friday, July 20, 2012
Fangirling and Amazing Food
I made the best dinner ever.. Seriously..
I have a thing for chicken nuggets, but the ones from Mickey D's have started to scare me a little. With the whole pink slime thing, it really makes me wonder exactly what is in my nuggets. That and the grease is horrid. Keeping all of this in mind, I found a recipe for baked chicken nuggets... I had to try them, and they were totally worth it! Tender, juicy, flavorful, and perfect for dipping, snacking, or putting on a salad for dinner.
I found the recipe on Pinterest, and it led me here. I altered the recipe a bit, mostly because I don't keep Panko in the house. They were AWESOME!! For a side I made squash and peppers (recipe will come soon).
As for the mention of fangirling... I'm currently obsessed with a new series and a new actor. The series is called Dr. Who. Time Lords, Daleks, TARDIS, companions and Capt. Jack.. Who can go wrong? My actor is the ultra sexy David Tennant. You make recognize him as the actor that portrayed Barty Crouch Jr in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. He is the 10th regeneration of the Doctor (the show has been going since 1969) and I'm obsessed. Yum yum doctor LOL
A friend of mine and I tend to think he would make an amazing Christian Grey from the Fifty Shades of Grey series
I have a thing for chicken nuggets, but the ones from Mickey D's have started to scare me a little. With the whole pink slime thing, it really makes me wonder exactly what is in my nuggets. That and the grease is horrid. Keeping all of this in mind, I found a recipe for baked chicken nuggets... I had to try them, and they were totally worth it! Tender, juicy, flavorful, and perfect for dipping, snacking, or putting on a salad for dinner.
I found the recipe on Pinterest, and it led me here. I altered the recipe a bit, mostly because I don't keep Panko in the house. They were AWESOME!! For a side I made squash and peppers (recipe will come soon).
As for the mention of fangirling... I'm currently obsessed with a new series and a new actor. The series is called Dr. Who. Time Lords, Daleks, TARDIS, companions and Capt. Jack.. Who can go wrong? My actor is the ultra sexy David Tennant. You make recognize him as the actor that portrayed Barty Crouch Jr in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. He is the 10th regeneration of the Doctor (the show has been going since 1969) and I'm obsessed. Yum yum doctor LOL
A friend of mine and I tend to think he would make an amazing Christian Grey from the Fifty Shades of Grey series
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Ouchie Dammit
James and I started a Boot Camp program last night. It's a combination of everything (cardio, abs, upper body, and lower body) crammed into 1 30-minute sweat fest. Of course I offer my thanks to the wonderful people at Hulu plus for putting some awesome stuff under their fitness category.
I have muscles sore that I didn't think were possible to be sore. I can feel the burn in my thighs, back and shoulders. Thighs and shoulders, not so bad... Back?! Holy moly it hurts like a MFer. I digress, it's not pain.. It's soreness. Delicious, excruciating, groaning in pain soreness. Of course the masochist in me is ready to go with round 2 tonight! No pain, no gain.
We also had a night cap with our favorite candlelight yoga class. I'm sad to sat that it will not be available on Netflix after August 1 :( Sad panda.
On the menu for dinner tonight is baked chicken nuggets and some kind of veggies. During our next grocery trip I'm going to invest in some of the quinoa stuff I've heard so much about. I've also read tips on how to have your fresh veggies last for a month (yay freeer bags!). I'm excited to finally get back off my arse and get things done.
I have muscles sore that I didn't think were possible to be sore. I can feel the burn in my thighs, back and shoulders. Thighs and shoulders, not so bad... Back?! Holy moly it hurts like a MFer. I digress, it's not pain.. It's soreness. Delicious, excruciating, groaning in pain soreness. Of course the masochist in me is ready to go with round 2 tonight! No pain, no gain.
We also had a night cap with our favorite candlelight yoga class. I'm sad to sat that it will not be available on Netflix after August 1 :( Sad panda.
On the menu for dinner tonight is baked chicken nuggets and some kind of veggies. During our next grocery trip I'm going to invest in some of the quinoa stuff I've heard so much about. I've also read tips on how to have your fresh veggies last for a month (yay freeer bags!). I'm excited to finally get back off my arse and get things done.
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
July Fireworks
Stress has been my middle name for the last 2-3 weeks. Job related stress has been at the forefront of my mind, so everything (weight loss included) has been pushed to the back burner.
I weighed myself a couple mornings ago and it appears that I'm staying at a steady 271. I would like to be down to about 240 by Christmas. I know that wasn't the plan when I started this project, but alas, earwax.
Since summer is officially here, I suppose it's time to get back on the wagon. Work hasn't really calmed down, but I do have more free time now that there are no kids. I'm planning a trip to OK to see my best friend in a few weeks and I have a trip to New Orleans coming up for work. Lot's of travel, so lets see how I complete the tasks set forth.
I posted the recipe for one of my delicious spaghetti sauce recipes under the recipes tab. It's some of the best sauce I've ever made. I need to focus more on my cooking, especially now that I have time.
I weighed myself a couple mornings ago and it appears that I'm staying at a steady 271. I would like to be down to about 240 by Christmas. I know that wasn't the plan when I started this project, but alas, earwax.
Since summer is officially here, I suppose it's time to get back on the wagon. Work hasn't really calmed down, but I do have more free time now that there are no kids. I'm planning a trip to OK to see my best friend in a few weeks and I have a trip to New Orleans coming up for work. Lot's of travel, so lets see how I complete the tasks set forth.
I posted the recipe for one of my delicious spaghetti sauce recipes under the recipes tab. It's some of the best sauce I've ever made. I need to focus more on my cooking, especially now that I have time.
Friday, June 22, 2012
Me miss you long time?
Howdy howdy...
Long time no update.. Been a tad busy.. Work is royally kicking me square in the arse, and I barely have time to eat. Much less blog or workout. Yes, working out relieves stress. When you work until 2am and have to be up again at 0730, the time to workout flies directly out the window.
With school FINALLY coming to a close, I'm going to have some free time on my hands which means more workouts. Plus I'm going to re-do my living room and work on finding different work. I love my job, I really do.. But for reasons I refuse to post on the internet, I think it may be time to move on.
I have another reason for getting my lard butt back into workout mode too. I'm planning a cruise!! Fiance, me and one of my BFFs (best f*&%ing friends) are taking a cruise next August! We've gotten our savings plan in place and we're all motivated to work our asses off to look sexier than we already are. I haven't said anything about the cruise on Facebook and I probably won't. Come next August, I will be lounging in the Caribbean Sea with my 2 favorite men... CAN'T WAIT!!!
Long time no update.. Been a tad busy.. Work is royally kicking me square in the arse, and I barely have time to eat. Much less blog or workout. Yes, working out relieves stress. When you work until 2am and have to be up again at 0730, the time to workout flies directly out the window.
With school FINALLY coming to a close, I'm going to have some free time on my hands which means more workouts. Plus I'm going to re-do my living room and work on finding different work. I love my job, I really do.. But for reasons I refuse to post on the internet, I think it may be time to move on.
I have another reason for getting my lard butt back into workout mode too. I'm planning a cruise!! Fiance, me and one of my BFFs (best f*&%ing friends) are taking a cruise next August! We've gotten our savings plan in place and we're all motivated to work our asses off to look sexier than we already are. I haven't said anything about the cruise on Facebook and I probably won't. Come next August, I will be lounging in the Caribbean Sea with my 2 favorite men... CAN'T WAIT!!!
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