The headaches... Dear sweet baby Jesus the headaches. I have had a headache constantly for the last 6 days. Not my normal everyday headache. These have been bitches. I guess I can't say constantly, because I was actually headache free yesterday until about 6pm. Then in the middle of dinner it hit.
I can't really tell anyone about the headaches. It makes me really sad when I mention the pain to Carlos. He gets this angst filled look on his face that utterly breaks my heart. He wants to help. He wants to fix things. It's his nature to sacrifice and comfort the ones he loves, so it hurts me to know that there's nothing he can do for me.
The food... Love/hate as always. Fucking Sonic. Yeah... Giving up Sonic for lent was not successful. I tried, but I wasn't able to hold on. I guess the good news is that the breakfast I eat at sonic lasts me WELL past lunch time. It's usually 4 or 5 before I still feeling a bit hungry, and then it's time for dinner. I know that's not good, but the calories in my normal breakfast are over half of my day's allowance.
The fat... Starting the new job... I gained weight. Almost all of it back. I am standing now at 275. I am really trying to find time to exercise and eat better, but my emotions and stress tend to get the best of me. I'm not proud of it.
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Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Saturday, December 7, 2013
I'm still here!
Howdy all!
I'm still around. Life has been leaving me in the dust lately. Here is a quick update on things...
Carlos and I are still together! We are coming up on 8 months of happy, fantastic, dysfunction. He's the best guy ever and I'm a lucky girl to have him. Did I mention that he cleaned my car out?! He's a brave man too.
The new job.... I love my kids. I love teaching. I have a TERRIBLE boss. She's so terrible to me. She's demeaning, rude and never misses an opportunity to cut me down. She's an asshole.
I've recently gotten into making homemade bath and body stuff :) all natural lotions, creams, scrubs mad maybe some candles eventually. I really hope that I can get good enough at making the stuff so I can sell it and make some extra money.
I'm still around. Life has been leaving me in the dust lately. Here is a quick update on things...
Carlos and I are still together! We are coming up on 8 months of happy, fantastic, dysfunction. He's the best guy ever and I'm a lucky girl to have him. Did I mention that he cleaned my car out?! He's a brave man too.
The new job.... I love my kids. I love teaching. I have a TERRIBLE boss. She's so terrible to me. She's demeaning, rude and never misses an opportunity to cut me down. She's an asshole.
I've recently gotten into making homemade bath and body stuff :) all natural lotions, creams, scrubs mad maybe some candles eventually. I really hope that I can get good enough at making the stuff so I can sell it and make some extra money.
Saturday, August 3, 2013
Happy Birthday dear Carlos!
For my sweet boyfriend's birthday (which I've been planning since June!) I took him on a little overnight trip to Schlitterbahn! It was the absolute most fun I've had in a very long time. We got to spend some serious quality time together. We laughed, goofed off, joked and just generally had a blast.
I didn't manage to get too many pictures, because... Well... Water park + iPhone = disaster.
Here's a recap of our trip!
We left my parent's house around 6:30... Stopped at Denny's (yes... my Denny's) for some breakfast. We arrived at the park around 9:30 and they were already letting people in the gates! Woo! We rode some rides, walked a ton, climbed steps, swam, and had a fantastic time. Around noon we trekked out to the car for some much needed turkey wraps, chips and string cheese. Nom nom. After lunch we ventured back to the park and lounged in a hot tub to let our food settle. Around 4 we started getting hot and crabby, so we ventured to the hotel for showers and dinner. Dinner at Olive Garden was AMAZING! I had a watermelon margarita and the chicken scampi. Nom nom. After dinner we went to Chilis for dessert... and by dessert I totally mean margaritas and chocolate lava cake.
The next day we woke up and ventured back to the Austin area. We stopped at BJ's Brewhouse for lunch and trolled the outlet mall for a bit. Then on to Georgetown for snowcones and finally home.
It was the best trip I've had. Carlos told me that it was also the absolute best birthday he'd ever had. That's what I was shooting for :)
I also got him a cupcake... But it melted in the car... Oops.. Oh well... Here are the pictures I did manage to snap!
I didn't manage to get too many pictures, because... Well... Water park + iPhone = disaster.
Here's a recap of our trip!
We left my parent's house around 6:30... Stopped at Denny's (yes... my Denny's) for some breakfast. We arrived at the park around 9:30 and they were already letting people in the gates! Woo! We rode some rides, walked a ton, climbed steps, swam, and had a fantastic time. Around noon we trekked out to the car for some much needed turkey wraps, chips and string cheese. Nom nom. After lunch we ventured back to the park and lounged in a hot tub to let our food settle. Around 4 we started getting hot and crabby, so we ventured to the hotel for showers and dinner. Dinner at Olive Garden was AMAZING! I had a watermelon margarita and the chicken scampi. Nom nom. After dinner we went to Chilis for dessert... and by dessert I totally mean margaritas and chocolate lava cake.
The next day we woke up and ventured back to the Austin area. We stopped at BJ's Brewhouse for lunch and trolled the outlet mall for a bit. Then on to Georgetown for snowcones and finally home.
It was the best trip I've had. Carlos told me that it was also the absolute best birthday he'd ever had. That's what I was shooting for :)
I also got him a cupcake... But it melted in the car... Oops.. Oh well... Here are the pictures I did manage to snap!
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| Not a very good picture... But at the water park! |
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| Selfie before Dinner |
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| Snow Cones!! Nom nom nom! |
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| Not sure if you've noticed, but I kinda love this guy :) |
Monday, June 3, 2013
Laters Baby
Howdy my darlings! I've missed you so! It feels like it's been FOREVER since I've posted. I know I've published a couple from my phone, and I'm still working on replying to your comments. Thank you all so much for the wonderful words of encouragement after my trippy binge last week. It took some time, but I think I'm mentally healed from it. It sucked for a while and I felt like shit, but I am over it and moving on.
My weekend was 100% uneventful. I really didn't do anything except work and sleep. I was also completely boyfriend-less for the weekend. Carlos went to A-Kon in Dallas from Thursday to Sunday and left his phone at home. So I didn't hear from him until this afternoon. He said he had a good time, but he's not going again next year. The people that throw the convention moved it to a new hotel, which made prices for stuff go through the roof.
He's also having some troubles at home. Poor guy. I really don't want to put his business out on my blog, but if you pray, please say a quick one for him. His family is driving him BSC.
I'm really excited for Wednesday.. It's my next day off, meaning I get to go running! I want to do some kind of exercise on my days off, but it's too damn hot in the daylight and I'm a bum that works the evening shift.
I've recently started re-reading the 50 Shades of Grey books. Why not? It's an intriguing topic and one that I've thought about exploring some. There's a fine line between pleasure and pain... Sometimes I like to pick that line up and skip rope with it :)
Laters Baby!
My weekend was 100% uneventful. I really didn't do anything except work and sleep. I was also completely boyfriend-less for the weekend. Carlos went to A-Kon in Dallas from Thursday to Sunday and left his phone at home. So I didn't hear from him until this afternoon. He said he had a good time, but he's not going again next year. The people that throw the convention moved it to a new hotel, which made prices for stuff go through the roof.
Did I mention that he said he missed me like crazy?! Woo!
He's also having some troubles at home. Poor guy. I really don't want to put his business out on my blog, but if you pray, please say a quick one for him. His family is driving him BSC.
I'm really excited for Wednesday.. It's my next day off, meaning I get to go running! I want to do some kind of exercise on my days off, but it's too damn hot in the daylight and I'm a bum that works the evening shift.
I've recently started re-reading the 50 Shades of Grey books. Why not? It's an intriguing topic and one that I've thought about exploring some. There's a fine line between pleasure and pain... Sometimes I like to pick that line up and skip rope with it :)
Laters Baby!
Friday, May 24, 2013
Fluffy Friday! Pieces of Happy :)
Good morning my darlings! I am linking up during this morning's Fluffy Friday with the beautiful girl, Kenzie over at Chasing Happy! So... What is happy for me this week? Oh so much :)
>>Date night with my Carlos!
>>The Great Gatsby... Best movie adaptation of a book... EVER!
>>Getting a good 2.3 mile walk in on Wednesday night
>>Getting a good 2.3 mile walk in on Wednesday night
>>My last day of having 3 jobs is... TODAY!
>>Being 100% obsessed with my new job.
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| Except at the end of 12 hour shifts... Yikes... |
>>My dear friend Rudy has a date tonight! I'm so excited for him!
>>Planning Carlos's birthday awesomeness! I'll give my sweet readers details, but HE GETS NONE! :-p
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| Yep.. Taking him to Schillterbahn! Along with other various things :) |
>>@psiloveyou__ on IG! They have some of the absolute sweetest pictures... Sigh
>>That funny feeling I get in my chest when I hear Carlos say my name.
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| I hate this picture of me... But it captured the moment perfectly... |
>>That funny feeling I get in my chest when I catch myself daydreaming about my boyfriend :)
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Date Recap and Exploring My Feelings.
I mentioned on Monday that I had a date on Monday night with the boyfriend. (Boyfriend!! Ahhh!! I'm still reeling over that word!) I didn't do a recap of the date yesterday, because my mind was too preoccupied by the happenings in OK and the possibility that we could be hit with similar storms.
I suppose it is time to share a recap of what has turned out to be our best date so far! I didn't take any pictures... I should have.. It was so much fun!
We started the night off meeting at the mall and buying our movie tickets. Couldn't let them sell out! Then we roamed the mall for a bit, just chatting about nothing... Holding hands, linking arms, just enjoying each other's company. I started getting hungry, so luckily we went for dinner. Cotton Patch Cafe is my ultimate go-to for date food in the mall.. The booths are intimate, the food is awesome, and the location is perfect. We both ordered chicken fried steak (I know... Bad Sammie! What I'm not telling you about is the cheese fries O_O) and spent close to an hour at our table, just talking and laughing. I learned that he was an FFA member in high school! That was enough to thoroughly impress me. (Side note: I have pet cows... I'm a country girl... FFA jackets were always super sexy to me!).
After dinner we ventured to the arcade. I'm not a gamer by any means, but I can wreck shop in some skee ball! We played several rounds of skee ball, a game of air hockey (I got beat, baaad), and I watched him play DDR (holy crap that was funny!). With all our skee ball winnings, we managed to put together about 100 tickets. Being the gentleman that he is, I got to pick the prize... So I got a glow stick. After we exhausted ourwallets options at the arcade, we ventured out to his car to listen to music and make out chat. I'm also very mischievous and snapped the glow stick... It was pink... So I left it in his car :-)
Around 9:00pm we ventured back into the mall to get our seats at the movie theater. We saw The Great Gatsby. AMAZING! (I'll gush about that another time). I wound up getting home around 12:30am (on a work night!) and let me say... The exhaustion on Tuesday was WORTH IT! Totally worth it.
He's different... Very different... Not in a bad way either.. I've never had anyone touch me like he does. Like, when we were at dinner.. He reached across the table to grab my hand. I could feel something like electricity when our hands met. Or when we were walking in the mall, arms linked, my head on his shoulder. He leaned down and kissed the top of my head. I felt that kiss from the top of my head to the soles of my feet. It was a warm, electric feeling that washed over me.
I thought I knew what love felt like... I thought I knew how it was supposed to feel when someone who loves (only assuming here) you touches you. I have no doubt in my mind that he feels as strongly about me as I do for him. My stomach does full on back flips when he gives me that lopsided smile and says, "You're so pretty." For the first time I really believe it when someone tells me that. There's not a doubt in my mind that I'm cruising down the path to being IN the big L-Word (not lesbian.... TYVM). Spending one minute on the phone with him is better than spending 2 minutes in silence. I feel like it's become part of my goal in life to make him happy and I can actually acheive that by just being me.
I suppose it is time to share a recap of what has turned out to be our best date so far! I didn't take any pictures... I should have.. It was so much fun!
We started the night off meeting at the mall and buying our movie tickets. Couldn't let them sell out! Then we roamed the mall for a bit, just chatting about nothing... Holding hands, linking arms, just enjoying each other's company. I started getting hungry, so luckily we went for dinner. Cotton Patch Cafe is my ultimate go-to for date food in the mall.. The booths are intimate, the food is awesome, and the location is perfect. We both ordered chicken fried steak (I know... Bad Sammie! What I'm not telling you about is the cheese fries O_O) and spent close to an hour at our table, just talking and laughing. I learned that he was an FFA member in high school! That was enough to thoroughly impress me. (Side note: I have pet cows... I'm a country girl... FFA jackets were always super sexy to me!).
After dinner we ventured to the arcade. I'm not a gamer by any means, but I can wreck shop in some skee ball! We played several rounds of skee ball, a game of air hockey (I got beat, baaad), and I watched him play DDR (holy crap that was funny!). With all our skee ball winnings, we managed to put together about 100 tickets. Being the gentleman that he is, I got to pick the prize... So I got a glow stick. After we exhausted our
Around 9:00pm we ventured back into the mall to get our seats at the movie theater. We saw The Great Gatsby. AMAZING! (I'll gush about that another time). I wound up getting home around 12:30am (on a work night!) and let me say... The exhaustion on Tuesday was WORTH IT! Totally worth it.
He's different... Very different... Not in a bad way either.. I've never had anyone touch me like he does. Like, when we were at dinner.. He reached across the table to grab my hand. I could feel something like electricity when our hands met. Or when we were walking in the mall, arms linked, my head on his shoulder. He leaned down and kissed the top of my head. I felt that kiss from the top of my head to the soles of my feet. It was a warm, electric feeling that washed over me.
I thought I knew what love felt like... I thought I knew how it was supposed to feel when someone who loves (only assuming here) you touches you. I have no doubt in my mind that he feels as strongly about me as I do for him. My stomach does full on back flips when he gives me that lopsided smile and says, "You're so pretty." For the first time I really believe it when someone tells me that. There's not a doubt in my mind that I'm cruising down the path to being IN the big L-Word (not lesbian.... TYVM). Spending one minute on the phone with him is better than spending 2 minutes in silence. I feel like it's become part of my goal in life to make him happy and I can actually acheive that by just being me.
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
No Hesitations...
Good morning loves! It's Tuesday, which means I normally would be posting about my 5K training. There's really nothing to say about it, other than having 3 jobs, a family, and a boyfriend I don't have time to sleep... Much less actually get to run. Friday is my last day as a sub for the year, so there is an end in sight! I think I may celebrate during the weekend with a good, long, soul cleansing walk/jog/shuffle.
I am still planning on walking the 5K on the 1st of June! I'm really excited about it! Even if I have to work that day, I will be walking! This will be the 2nd 5K I've walked in my life. I really wanted to try and run it, but between the injurines and other setbacks, that won't be happening. Now that I'm a waitress, I can't risk hurting myself to the point of not being able to walk.
So.. Now that I've updated on my training (or lack thereof), let me get to the main point of my post... No hesitations... With so much tragedy and sadness in the world today, the last thing I ever want is to have people questioning what I think about them. When I'm gone, I want no questions left unanswered, IRL or in my blogosphere. My message for the day is this... Do NOT hesitate to tell people you love them. If you think they are the bee's knees, the cat's pajamas, the shiz or that the sun shines out of their ass, then tell them. Do not let another second go by without telling them how you feel. Carpe diem. Sieze the day AKA grab the day by the balls and have a frickin party!
Because I want this in writing, just in case something does happen... Here are some of the things I really want people to know..
Mom- You bug the shit out of me sometimes, but you are my hero. You sometimes act alot little BSC, but I still love you. Sometimes I don't like you, but I will always love you.
Dad- Copy everything from what I told Mom, except you bug the shit out of me all the time. I do think that we are more alike, in some ways, than either of us are willing to admit.
Chuck- You have always been the smarter of the 2 of us. I really hope your brains take you far. You deserve so much out of life and I want you to know how proud I am of you. You've made something of yourself, despite our crap education. Sometimes I think you have no heart and no emotion, but you always prove me wrong. You just don't show your heart or emotion the same way I do.
Carlos- We've known each other for 2 years (or so)... I remember the last time I talked to you, before we lost contact. It was Christmas Eve 2011. I'll never forget it, because you said that I had upset you. I know why you were upset. It was justified. We lost 2 years with each other. Even back then, talking to you was the highlight of my day. Your feelings aren't unrequited, and they never were. I've absolutely 100% adored you since the day we met. I thought about you a lot after we lost touch. My adoration was repressed, but it never faded. I'm falling in love with you Carlos and I have been since we met.
I think this is where I need to stop. The 4 most important people in my world. I could write about this all day. At least now, whatever tomorrow brings, there is written record of exactly how I feel in this moment. This feels like a pretty intimate post. Sorry if it makes anyone uncomfortable...
-Sammie
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| I'm also sexy and I know it... |
I am still planning on walking the 5K on the 1st of June! I'm really excited about it! Even if I have to work that day, I will be walking! This will be the 2nd 5K I've walked in my life. I really wanted to try and run it, but between the injurines and other setbacks, that won't be happening. Now that I'm a waitress, I can't risk hurting myself to the point of not being able to walk.
So.. Now that I've updated on my training (or lack thereof), let me get to the main point of my post... No hesitations... With so much tragedy and sadness in the world today, the last thing I ever want is to have people questioning what I think about them. When I'm gone, I want no questions left unanswered, IRL or in my blogosphere. My message for the day is this... Do NOT hesitate to tell people you love them. If you think they are the bee's knees, the cat's pajamas, the shiz or that the sun shines out of their ass, then tell them. Do not let another second go by without telling them how you feel. Carpe diem. Sieze the day AKA grab the day by the balls and have a frickin party!
Because I want this in writing, just in case something does happen... Here are some of the things I really want people to know..
Mom- You bug the shit out of me sometimes, but you are my hero. You sometimes act a
Dad- Copy everything from what I told Mom, except you bug the shit out of me all the time. I do think that we are more alike, in some ways, than either of us are willing to admit.
Chuck- You have always been the smarter of the 2 of us. I really hope your brains take you far. You deserve so much out of life and I want you to know how proud I am of you. You've made something of yourself, despite our crap education. Sometimes I think you have no heart and no emotion, but you always prove me wrong. You just don't show your heart or emotion the same way I do.
Carlos- We've known each other for 2 years (or so)... I remember the last time I talked to you, before we lost contact. It was Christmas Eve 2011. I'll never forget it, because you said that I had upset you. I know why you were upset. It was justified. We lost 2 years with each other. Even back then, talking to you was the highlight of my day. Your feelings aren't unrequited, and they never were. I've absolutely 100% adored you since the day we met. I thought about you a lot after we lost touch. My adoration was repressed, but it never faded. I'm falling in love with you Carlos and I have been since we met.
I think this is where I need to stop. The 4 most important people in my world. I could write about this all day. At least now, whatever tomorrow brings, there is written record of exactly how I feel in this moment. This feels like a pretty intimate post. Sorry if it makes anyone uncomfortable...
-Sammie
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