Quarter Century

Today is my big 2-5...

Yep, I'm 25 years old today. Holy crap. I think today is the day that I'm officially an adult. It feels so weird.

To update briefly on how things are going.... My grandma is really sick. In September she was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. In the last 2 weeks she has really gone down hill. She is no longer able to walk, her bowels are shutting down, and she's so weak. I really think the end is very near. It makes me so sad to know that I'm close to such a milestone in my life and so close to losing someone that's so important to me.

The Headaches, The Food, The Fat

The headaches... Dear sweet baby Jesus the headaches. I have had a headache constantly for the last 6 days. Not my normal everyday headache. These have been bitches. I guess I can't say constantly, because I was actually headache free yesterday until about 6pm. Then in the middle of dinner it hit.

I can't really tell anyone about the headaches. It makes me really sad when I mention the pain to Carlos. He gets this angst filled look on his face that utterly breaks my heart. He wants to help. He wants to fix things. It's his nature to sacrifice and comfort the ones he loves, so it hurts me to know that there's nothing he can do for me.

The food... Love/hate as always. Fucking Sonic. Yeah... Giving up Sonic for lent was not successful. I tried, but I wasn't able to hold on. I guess the good news is that the breakfast I eat at sonic lasts me WELL past lunch time. It's usually 4 or 5 before I still feeling a bit hungry, and then it's time for dinner. I know that's not good, but the calories in my normal breakfast are over half of my day's allowance.

The fat... Starting the new job... I gained weight. Almost all of it back. I am standing now at 275. I am really trying to find time to exercise and eat better, but my emotions and stress tend to get the best of me. I'm not proud of it.

MS

Afternoon lovely bloggers. Long time no speak...

I'm really happy I still have my blog, because I really need to get some stuff off my chest. Hopefully I will be able to post more often. I need this outlet. 

I'm currently undergoing testing to be diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. I have had 2 MRIs and a lumbar puncture this spring break. 

I have a constant headache and my lower back hurts. My toes are numb and I get random pins and  needles in my feet and hands. I have to pee constantly and sometimes I can't hold it and pee on myself. I'm 24, almost 25 and I am incontinent. 

I'm trying to fight, but I don't have the energy. I want to keep going, but I'm just tired. I want answers. I want to know why. Why me? Why this? Why now? Why can't I have some relief?

I want to be able to do cross fit, kick boxing, hell anything. 

I'm still here!

Howdy all!

I'm still around. Life has been leaving me in the dust lately. Here is a quick update on things...

Carlos and I are still together! We are coming up on 8 months of happy, fantastic, dysfunction. He's the best guy ever and I'm a lucky girl to have him. Did I mention that he cleaned my car out?! He's a brave man too.

The new job.... I love my kids. I love teaching. I have a TERRIBLE boss. She's so terrible to me. She's demeaning, rude and never misses an opportunity to cut me down. She's an asshole.

I've recently gotten into making homemade bath and body stuff :) all natural lotions, creams, scrubs mad maybe some candles eventually. I really hope that I can get good enough at making the stuff so I can sell it and make some extra money.

I got a job!!

I'm so excited!! I finally got a call for a job! And a fantastic job at that! I am the newest ELA teacher at Shoemaker HS in Killeen! HOLY COW!

I'm sososososososososososoooooooooooo excited for this opportunity. I have no idea on any details yet, but I will know more on Monday.

Oh? Best part? The school is like... 2 blocks away from Carlos' house! I may actually get to see my boyfriend on a near daily basis, instead of this once a week nonsense.

On a separate but related note, if I know you in real life (like spoken to you face to face) and you read my blog, don't use it to spy on me... I know who you are and you irritate me to no end. Oh... And your stuff? I'll get to it eventually... I'm busy being an adult... Maybe you should try it out sometime...

After that little tidbit of negativity... Back to the swooning over my job! I start on August 12th, meaning I have to cut waaaaaaay back on my shenanigans at Denny's. I love my current job, but I'm so ready to actually start my career. Career.... What an adult word... O_O The best part? This is just one more step on my road to funky-dom! Goodbye chunky!

Happy Birthday dear Carlos!

For my sweet boyfriend's birthday (which I've been planning since June!) I took him on a little overnight trip to Schlitterbahn! It was the absolute most fun I've had in a very long time. We got to spend some serious quality time together. We laughed, goofed off, joked and just generally had a blast.

I didn't manage to get too many pictures, because... Well... Water park + iPhone = disaster.

Here's a recap of our trip!

We left my parent's house around 6:30... Stopped at Denny's (yes... my Denny's) for some breakfast. We arrived at the park around 9:30 and they were already letting people in the gates! Woo! We rode some rides, walked a ton, climbed steps, swam, and had a fantastic time. Around noon we trekked out to the car for some much needed turkey wraps, chips and string cheese. Nom nom. After lunch we ventured back to the park and lounged in a hot tub to let our food settle. Around 4 we started getting hot and crabby, so we ventured to the hotel for showers and dinner. Dinner at Olive Garden was AMAZING! I had a watermelon margarita and the chicken scampi. Nom nom. After dinner we went to Chilis for dessert... and by dessert I totally mean margaritas and chocolate lava cake.

The next day we woke up and ventured back to the Austin area. We stopped at BJ's Brewhouse for lunch and trolled the outlet mall for a bit. Then on to Georgetown for snowcones and finally home.

It was the best trip I've had. Carlos told me that it was also the absolute best birthday he'd ever had. That's what I was shooting for :)

I also got him a cupcake... But it melted in the car... Oops..  Oh well... Here are the pictures I did manage to snap!

Not a very good picture... But at the water park!

Selfie before Dinner

Snow Cones!! Nom nom nom!

Not sure if you've noticed, but I kinda love this guy :)

Cara Box Reveal!

So... I'm a bit of a dunce...

I forget to do the most basic, everyday tasks.. Like check my mail. I have to actually go to the post office, so unless I drive by, I don't even think about it. 

That's why my blog is late. It took me a bit to check my mail... And once I checked it, I got distracted by something shiny and forgot to take pics and post. Oops. 

So... Here is my box from the lovely lovely Sydney! I am OBSESSED with the journal! It's definitely going in a safe place :) oh and the soap is all natural and made from goat's milk! How effin cool is that!! Thanks Sydney! You're awesome sauce!!